Future?

I Just Caught "We're The Millers" with Jimmy and it was so funny! It's been awhile since I actually had a good laugh catching a comedy movie. I love comedy movies! And I love to laugh (as you can refer to the title of my blog), like who doesn't? However, comedy movies usually led to a disappointment nowadays. In my opinion, e.g. "The Internship", is not as funny as compared to "We're The Millers" because I didn't laugh like almost throughout the movie. SO.. Please go and catch the movie if you have not! I bet you're not gonna regret it! :D

Anyways, the topic today is "Future".

I am stuck in between studying in a local private Uni or going overseas! Arghh, hate that I am so fickle minded. How I wish I can know what exactly I want or at least have a distinctive talent/skills, then I wouldn't have to go through so much trouble and waste all the time that I have been wasting. Sometimes I hope somebody can tell me what am I good at because I really have no idea. I don't like this uncertainty and I am afraid of making wrong decisions.

I want to study in a local private Uni because I can be financially free, I will have the support from my family and friends if I need any help, and at least I know I am home. However, most of the people here have a local or private degree, which I find it too common. I want new experience, I want to meet new people, I want a new environment and I want to gain independence. Especially because there is a growing population in my country, & I really hate seeing all the uncivilised people around ruining this beautiful island.

Then I want to study abroad is because of the above factors, and actually I want to migrate with my mom in the future. We are both tired of this place, tired of facing selfish people, and we are tired of living in this overcrowding island.

But if I were to study abroad, first thing that I am worried about is my eye. I have suffered from Recurrent Cornea Erosion a couple of times this year and it was really bad. And I am so blessed to have the support from my family and friends. Besides, I am well taken care by the local doctors. What if it happens again when I am alone out there? How would I know if I am seeing a reliable doctor? Who will be there with me when I am partially blind? :( Then next, I worry about my finance. I will only have enough to survive, not more and maybe less. I know then I will learn to be thrifty but I don't want to be burdened by study loans. :(

I wish I know what to do...