Feeling Lousy.

Sigh, I guess this is the only space I can vent out my anger and describe how unhappy I am in this "Prison".

So this morning I was dragging my feet to work because I reached my office area around half an hour earlier. My god. I have never ever experience this in my whole life, dying NOT to go to work. No motivation every day because either I have nothing to do or I get nagged or scolded at. wtf. I mean I am only a month plus old here and I am still trying to remember the things that I have been taught. They think they hired a robot. I always wonder, what if I leave? and just let them drown in all the work. But I guess I have got no other choice because I really don't want to waste time finding another one, which may or may not give me the same expected pay as this company is giving. So I guess I really have to persevere?

This morning I got nagged by my direct superior because of this bitch who complaint to him about my mistakes and from what I know she'll definitely exaggerate all the situations to him. I can totally imagine how bitchy she was and how she deliberately emphasize on my flaws. I admit that at some parts I am still figuring out how to make work more efficient for me but come on, can she cut me some slack? She have been working here for many years and I have only been working for 1 month plus, which I have calculate that sums up to around 31 working days = 1 month, how can she compare? If I am as good as her, I could have easily taken over her place or I wouldn't even work here in the first place because I am more experience and efficient than anyone else here.

Sometimes she is nice, like she kinda help me deal with more serious issues or gave me tips about how to do certain stuff at work, but at times or most of the time, she can be a total sarcastic bitch that you just feel like slapping when she opens her damn bloody mouth. She never compliment, she always nag/ give sarcastic remarks/ always thinks she is right. She is not even my boss. Why is she allowed to do this to me?

It is really sad to work in such a place and be unhappy most of the days. And I believe this will be the one and only time I will tolerate such situation because I can't afford to give it all up for happiness. I understand that money is not the key to happiness, it is definitely not. But if I don't work for some money, how am I suppose to live? And find happiness?

I just can't wait, really really really can't wait to leave this shit hole.

Dear time

Please just fast forward for me, to the end of my contract and I shall be out for good.

Sincerely,